I don’t have a dream.
I don’t have an end goal.
I don’t have a destination.
Ever since I can remember, people are always asking what I want to do with my life. What do I want to be when I grow up, what am I going to do after I graduate, what am I going to with my life.
I always had an answer of course; a vet, a marine biologist, a forensic scientist.
I was supposed to have an answer, I was supposed to plan and figure out where my life was going. So I tried.
I’m now 20 years old (almost 21!), going to university, living away from home. And I no longer have an answer. People still ask, it’s a very common conversation starter among university students, as well as at family get-together’s especially if you’re the only one in the family at university. People naturally want to know where you’re going and what your plan is. If you’re in university you have to have big plans and goals, right?
Lot’s of people do, and that’s amazing. Follow your dreams, achieve your goals.
But I don’t.
I don’t know where I’m going, maybe I’ll move across the world. Maybe I’ll get another degree. Maybe I’ll get a job right after I graduate. I simply don’t know. Which is a really difficult thing to live with in the society I have grown up in. I don’t know what my role in society is going to be, I don’t know how I’m going to be a productive member of society; because that’s what I’m supposed to be, productive. What’s more, I don’t know how I’m going to support myself and afford to live. That’s terrifying.
However, something that has really comforted me is something that Min Yoongi of BTS has said.
“It’s okay if you don’t have a dream, just be happy next year. You don’t need a dream to be happy.”
He said this as a happy new year message to the fans of BTS, however, it’s something that I’ve taken to heart in my daily life. I’ve started living for the things that make me happy now. At the start of this new year, hello 2019, I still don’t have a big dream. I’m not going to change the world, I’m not going to be the most successful person that my friends know. I simply choose to be happy. As I continue to work towards finishing my degree, I choose to be happy. Maybe I’ll find a goal along the way. But right now, and for the rest of my life, I want to be happy.
I hope anyone reading this can choose to be happy as well ❤